Hawaii

I applied for a job in Hawaii. This is one of those things my preacher refers to when he says "Push all barriers, have no regrets." I have finally seen why Hawaii is so desirable for me - exclusivity. I want things that only few have. I should know by now that even living in Hawaii would ultimately disappoint me. I wanted to live in log cabin on top of a mountain in Colorado and write software - I did that and there was no lasting satisfaction. I lived in a brand new house in an upscale community, still no satisfaction. Then a small duplex in the hood with a bunch of losers (including me) - while I find rest here, part of me still thinks I'm supposed to live on an island. At least until I look at the price of houses in Hawaii. I found a 585 sq. ft. house on a 5,400 sq ft. lot about 10 mins. from the beach for $400,000. Wham - back to reality. Maybe if I pray to the gods of lotto...