Hawaii

I applied for a job in Hawaii. This is one of those things my preacher refers to when he says "Push all barriers, have no regrets." I have finally seen why Hawaii is so desirable for me - exclusivity. I want things that only few have. I should know by now that even living in Hawaii would ultimately disappoint me. I wanted to live in log cabin on top of a mountain in Colorado and write software - I did that and there was no lasting satisfaction. I lived in a brand new house in an upscale community, still no satisfaction. Then a small duplex in the hood with a bunch of losers (including me) - while I find rest here, part of me still thinks I'm supposed to live on an island. At least until I look at the price of houses in Hawaii. I found a 585 sq. ft. house on a 5,400 sq ft. lot about 10 mins. from the beach for $400,000. Wham - back to reality. Maybe if I pray to the gods of lotto...

Anna's Gone

"Just read the news today, oh boy..." Anna Nicole Smith (not just Ann Smith) was found dead in her hotel room.

As far as pictures of "vain and emptiness", we could not have had a better illustration. Why did we watch her? The same reason there are "onlooker slowdowns" at accident scenes.

I'm really depressed - the Hollywood tv-tabloids will be running "All Anna - All the time." It will be like Princess Di. God save us.

The Beginning of the End...

The purpose of this blog is to find out if everything is truly vain and empty.